About a year ago, I needed help making friends. I was a recent grad student graduate, with an anti-social job in a foreign country where all of my fellow international friends had moved back home. I was cold and alone. Wasting away with nobody to talk to but a filing cabinet.
But now I am back in the United States, closer to my old college friends, have a (temporary) full-time job, and *gasp* work friends! Which has all lead to *another gasp* having a social life! As of now, I am living in a suburb of Chicago that is 15 minutes away from my work, and 20 minutes away from Chicago.
It is pretty awesome. I have weeks where I am in the city every day for trivia nights and dinner dates. Sometimes I even have to tell one person that I cannot hang out because I have already made plans. If this is what life was supposed to be like in high school, then I get it. Being popular is awesome. I get why young teens do whatever means necessary to become part of the elite.
This whole experience has also opened me up to dressing better, caring about my appearance, and just embracing my femininity. I am wearing jeans and tee shirts far less than I ever have in the past 5 years, wearing boots and flats instead of Vans and Converse, and utilizing blow dryers and curling wands.
Not saying that if you do not like these things, then you are not a woman. They’re just parts of my life I never thought I would embrace. Unfortunately, first impressions are still very important when meeting new people. So I am simply putting my best foot forward and using fashion to express certain aspects of my personality. Whether it is through wearing a skull spotted blouse or maroon colored tights.
**Old Me vs. New Me**
I have group texts that don’t annoy me when they go off. I have regularly scheduled plans. I am having fun and enjoying life. This is probably the first time in a very long time where I am genuinely happy with all aspects of my life. Work is good, friends are good, family is good, my self-esteem and confidence are at an all-time high. Everything is good.
I am good.